Pregnancy

I don't know how women do this over and over and over again. This is my third baby in three years and I feel like I am not going to make it to the end. For the past 32 weeks I have been completely exhausted except for one week which was a total teaser. I feel awful for my children since I haven't been able to do a whole lot with them. I had placenta previa in the beginning which limited my activity and my bones have already separated which makes it hard for me to walk for long periods of time. I have been having contractions for the past two months or so and they are just getting more frequent and more painful. I really am not "good" at being pregnant. Now the panic of having three kids 3 and under is starting to set in. Jack and Grace still get up in the middle of the night and now I am going to throw a new born into the mix. Will I ever sleep again? Of course, I am not the only woman in the world going through this and I know I will figure it out, but the thought of it is a bit overwhelming. But the thought of holding that little tiny baby in my arms tops it all. The smell of his sweet breath, the closeness you feel while nursing, just watching him sleep.......it all makes it worth it. If I could only just fast forward a bit! I am also wondering how the kids will adjust to a new baby in the house. I think Jack will be okay with it, but Grace is a whole other story. How can an adorable tiny girl be so mean?! She is bossy and whiny and demanding. I can't believe the difference between Jack and Grace. Thank God I am having another boy!
Well, only a couple of more weeks and I will have forgotten all that I went through to have baby Alexander. Then, next thing you know it will be his first birthday, his first day of school, his first lost tooth and I will be wondering what happened to the time. Now time to tend to the other fighting kids in my house!